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stayed over at amanda's house for the last 2 days. we talked until 2am last night and we were super tired and restless the whole day of today. i finally cut my hair today. it looks neater now. and i'm going to see da vinci's works with my cousins on sunday:) at least there is something to look forward to. alexa and i are going to meet junsen tomorrow morning at apple strudel so he can teach us. i think i really need help in my studies.

what have i done wrong? can someone please tell me?

i miss you.

it's been quite some time since i wrote something here. so many things happened and i really don't feel happy anymore. i just don't feel the same. i can't bring myself to smile and do the things that i like. i don't feel like going home because i know i'll start thinking of all the unhappy stuff and start the cycle all over again. i'll walk around the house thinking what i should do next. i feel so lost and lonely sometimes. but i really appreciate all the friends who stood by me and cheered me on. i guess it'll take quite some time before i really get over this. sometimes when you are down everything else seems to be bad too. i'm not on talking terms with my brother now. and i walked out of the house because i really couldn't stand his attitude and i couldn't cope with so many unhappy things. and my parents keep asking me if i'm alright because i look so sad everyday. i know you are concerned about me but i really don't feel like saying this right now. just give me some more time.

do you know how much i miss you? everything that i do reminds me of you. i'm always asking myself why will things turn out this way. but i learnt that we shouldn't look back and ask why but move on with life. you probably don't ever want to talk to me again. it really hurts when you said you just don't feel the same anymore. i'm sorry for all the hurtful things i have done in the past. i really wanted to make it up to you but i guess it is too late. i just hope you are happy. i know you are going through alot and i just want to say i'll always be there for you even though i can't tell you that i love you anymore. i really hope one day we can be good friends again.

after physics tuition me alexa daniel and jialing went to eat steamboat at roxy square:) and we went to 32 degrees to eat ice shavings! then me daniel and jialing went to PS because daniel had to get presents. spotlight has really a lot of nice stuff for making scrapbook and i was so tempted to buy them. met up with amanda yeo at city hall at around 3. i'm so sad because i didn't buy anything. i tried on this top from topshop that i really liked but they don't have my size:( then we went to The Soup Spoon and we ate and talked for about 2 hours. went to my aunt's house and came home not long ago. omg i didn't touch my tutorials for the whole of this weekend.


i'm so tired of life. i need a break. away from my brother who needs to change his f***ing attitude. away from you.

i really don't know what's on your mind right now.

my throat still hurts and i'm so angry becuase i have to refrain from all the yummy food and i can only eat things that are not fried. i think i should go see a doctor because my throat is not getting any better.

feeling fab today was quite boring. my class did muaythai and cartoon drawing. muaythai was quite interesting at first but then some of us got tired and we got kinda slack. and then it was arts fest. i heard my classmates cheering for me:) i think the audience was really noisy when the band played and i felt kinda insulted cause they are like not listening to us. they should at least keep their noise level down.

i'm so glad that there's no school tomorrow:) but i have physics tuition in the morning. and my dad is getting this new car next week!

my throat hurts like shit. hopefully it's tonsillitis.

i spent the evening reading 'Change of Heart' by Jodi Picoult. dr goh says pw results will be out on thursday:( gosh.

i was talking to my brother about syf last night. although i didn't go down to watch ahband's performance yesterday morning because of my physics spa, i know you guys have done your best and i'm proud of ahband.